I am tired. I am not having a good week and it is making me tired. Being a mom is the best and hardest thing I have ever done but it is particularly hard when there are other challenges in your life that are using up all you have in patience and energy. I am trying to pull out every stop for them, making sure I never take out my day on them but there is little left for me when they are in bed for the night.
And there is no renewed energy from this weather......grey grey grey....rain and grey.....only making getting out of bed harder and smiles not as fast to come. I can only hope that the clip that my life has chosen to travel at these days makes the hardest months of winter fly by. I try to remember that I always hate this time of year, always fall into a funk and always pull through.
There is another volunteer position that I really want to take but I am unsure if I really have enough hours in my day to even consider it. Between mom'ing it, running the house, parent council, the work I do with TPOMBA, the monthly recipe column, writing and cooking here and writing and cooking for FEAST (the soon to be launched new Canadian Parenting website coming in feb, get excited!!) I am worried how I am going to keep it all together. The twins have decided that naps are for suckers recently so those hours during the day are gone and their time at school is so short it is but a blip before it is over. I am struggling to find time.....just time! to do all the things that are important to me.....and then maybe just maybe eek out a little time for me in there too.....if I dig around on this desk somewhere there is a groupon I bought for 10 yoga classes.........but if I start getting stressed about finding the time to go to yoga....the more I am going to need the yoga.....but maybe that's a good start.