Wednesday, 27 August 2008

10 months and counting

Dear Bea and Gabe,

Today you turn ten months old. From now on you will always be double digits in the months old and that's a major landmark. I can't believe we are closing in on a year old. Where has all the time gone? This whole summer has flown by.

This was another crazy month of so much happening I hope I remember it all to be able to tell you guys about it.

Bea Bea wins the tooth race with two little bottom chompers that are razor sharp. You like to show them to me when you smile and they make me laugh every time. Gabe, you are teething like crazy but no toof yet. For now you are my little gummer. While Beas energy is going into teeth, Gabe your crawling like a champ now and you are pulling yourself up to standing which scares the crap out of me. You are suddenly a little boy covered in bruises. At the end of the day your little knees are bright red and sometimes scratched but you never complain, you love getting around and scream with joy. But you aren't so sure about the waterpark.

Both of you have become killer laughers this month and laugh at each other often which I love. I love that you like each other so much. Sometimes while you are both crawling around, you will find each other and fight to kiss each other. I find you both all wet from kisses and laughing.

This month was busy with travels. First we went to Stratford to visit Grampa Andy and Gramma Ruth for the day. They just couldn't get over the fact that there were two of you. Gramma Ruth fed you and Grampa Andy just couldn't believe how much you ate. Aunty Isis came over to play and you guys were extra charming and did pretty well considering that you pretty much missed all you naps for the day.

Then the following weekend Gramma Robin and Grampa Garwood came to visit and take us back to Pakenham with them. You guys were such troopers on the ride there. There was a major car accident on the highway that held us in parked traffic for two hours. The grandparent took you guys out of your seats and walked along the 401 with you. Everyone had gotten out of their cars to enjoy the nice day and see if they could see what was going on up the road. It was actually kind of neat and restored my ever failing hope for humanity. A group of girls with a case of water in their car handed out bottles and gave us extra encase we had to make formula because who knows how long we will be here. By the time we got to Pakenham it was well past your bedtimes but you guys were pretty happy campers and went down and slept through the night.

We spent a week in Pakenham visiting with family there. Great Granny Marion was the one most pleased to see you guys. I think she has an extra fondness for you because you are twins. The whole town knows about the Johnson twins. She asks about you guys often. I hope you have the chance to get to know her.

You guys are at the age when you start to do things that make sense. We got you a drum and I showed you how to use it and you drum it. Bea Bea your latest thing that is driving me crazy is to throw your food on the floor and then complain that your hungry. I find this incredibly frustrating but try to remember that everything is a stage and you will grow out of this soon enough too. AS fast as the stages are going and sometimes you are glad to see them pass, I feel like everything is going too fast. When I hold up the tiny sleepers you wore when you got home from the hospital, I miss my tiny little babies. Now I have 20lb roasters.

Your dad and I made a promise to you when you were born that we would always look at you with joy, no matter how close to the end of my rope I try to show you that I love you unconditionally and that the only way to face life is with a smile. These days with how joyful you both are, you have made that promise really easy to keep.
You guys kill me and I love you


Monday, 11 August 2008

Are you f*^%king kidding me??

While I was still pregnant a friend of mine had a house party. Her, her boyfriend and their housemates are total hippies so I knew there would be pot smoking and political rants but one thing I didn't count on was the stack of Cosmic Brownies. Yes, do you remember high school when you would eat pot cookies? Well they have been up graded to brownies now.

As one of the party throwers brought the stack out he announce "Cosmic Brownies anyone?" and set them down on the table beside me. There was a minor rush for the table when I over heard a voice ask "are they vegan?"


(and no I didnt eat them, I was pregnant!!)

Tuesday, 5 August 2008

Reedin n Ritin n Memberin

I was a student when I got pregnant and had to 'drop out'. The parents of the other students at the school thought I was a bad influence. My loose promiscuous behaviour. Getting knocked up mid term. They petitioned the school that I should leave before I started to 'show'.

Its all a lie but I love the controversy of it all......I was a student and I did drop out after two terms of hugeness. There was no point in me staying for the next term because the babes were due right in the middle of it. The program that I was in is VERY intense, jamming a degree into a fast track program. The difficulty of it was intensified by the sheer exhaustion of being pregnant with twins. I did manage keep 3.8 GPA but it took everything out of me. At the end of that second term, my busyness came to a grinding halt and it was strange to suddenly have too much time on my hands. This is something that I am not very good at so I took on projects that any other pregnant lady would have scoffed at. I painted my kitchen...yes 7 and a 1/2 months along and I am up on a step stool that could barely support my weight, painting my cabinets. I just knew that if it didn't get done now it was never going to get done. I also rearranged all the furniture on the second floor. We did have to find room for two cribs so this wasn't just pedantic craziness. And I washed every window in the house, inside and out. It was work that needed to be done and couldn't wait till my husband got home from work......

I also felt that I needed to read.....EVERYTHING. Maybe it was left over school busy feelings but I had to read everything I could get my hands on. I read the newspaper everyday and if you wanted to know anything about current events I was the one to ask. I also reread the entire Harry Potter series. Some of this was in anticipation of the seventh and final book coming out but mostly it was because I knew I wasn't going to have the opportunity to do again for a long time. Yes I suppose that I will read the books to the kids for bed time but that's not what I was doing. This was lying in bed, cold drink on the beside, dozing off if needed reading. Or lounging in the tub till the water got cold reading. When do people have the luxury of this kind of reading??

The point of all of this is that I haven't made it through a book in 9 month 1 week and 4 days. I have barely made it through a chapter. I have no idea what is going on in the world and in fact was told about a horrible event that happen in my own city by my mother who was in North Carolina at the time. This idle brain syndrome mixed with a survival on an amazingly little amount of sleep has made me stupid!!! The other day I was asked for my home phone number. I started to recite it and after getting through the area code I was completely stumped. I just stood there with a blank look on my face. The receptionist that needed it stared at me and after a minute asked if I was ok. I tried to make a joke of it that she would laugh at too but I was too worried about my own sanity to make it very funny. Then I remembered!!! My husband will know our phone number!! So I searched for my mobile....but I didn't have it and I wasn't about to ask the receptionist if I could use her phone to call him. And I couldn't recall his number either!!!! Finally after what felt like an hour of me standing there, she asked if any of my contact info had change but this time she spoke to me like I was mentally handicapped. She spoke slowly and enunciated carefully. No nothing has changed. Even as I wirte this I remember the whole event like it was yesterday......maybe it was yesterday! But I can't remember where I was.....a doctors office I think... I feel crazy for this but on the other hand, I am just too tired to really care!